- relationship break-ups
- more relationship break-ups
- compensation for things i did not do.
- car broke down
- bank account exhausted
- my rolex strap needs replacement
- etc etc the list goes on...
recently I find myself always on bad temper. either i dont know why, or i know why but i cant seem to acknowledge it. i am a person who doesnt give up easily to things that i have equire, but problem is, things leave me.
i know i am always an angry over the years, some people may not know, is because after i acquired things, they leave me behind. no matter how much i try to keep them.
i dont know what else should i do to keep things around me. i tried to be nice, gentleman for the pass one year or so. but for the pass one year, i have lost more than any other time. because in that period, i had acquired a lot of things, but in the end, they were the ones that leaves first.
recently my friend got married. joyful event. i was there to bear witness. old friend of mine, first among the list to get married, well "without missed shots". whilst it was merry, deep down, it hurts me to be there. everyone was talking to each other, except me. felt alienated although all of them were my high school friends. I always wonder, good people were always remembered as a friend. bad ones in reality, always have their own bunch of friends while good ones will occasionally join them. apparently none of the above fits my bill. and seriously, i am confused here.
I need a therapist, well...
I think...
I always remember Dr. Vijay (QuestNet Founder) used to say, "1 second of anger, 10 years of destructions". Its quite true actually but life just pushes people around and anger and disgust just flows like a river, non stop. I fight back all the time, because I do not wan to be drifted away by the current, accepting whatever that is coming my way.
but fighting back is always the one way that cost me the most. i am tired and alone. Guess its true what they say,
Life is a joke, drink beer is serious.
+1 on the comment if you are with me...
