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loosing myself... to temper...

2011-03-03T11:32:00.003+08:00

- lost a big deal
- relationship break-ups
- more relationship break-ups
- compensation for things i did not do.
- car broke down
- bank account exhausted
- my rolex strap needs replacement
- etc etc the list goes on...

I am angry, almost all the time. to what the unfortunate events cost me. Poured my heart and soul into everything and it just gets back to me like tsunami.

recently I find myself always on bad temper. either i dont know why, or i know why but i cant seem to acknowledge it. i am a person who doesnt give up easily to things that i have equire, but problem is, things leave me.

i know i am always an angry over the years, some people may not know, is because after i acquired things, they leave me behind. no matter how much i try to keep them.

i dont know what else should i do to keep things around me. i tried to be nice, gentleman for the pass one year or so. but for the pass one year, i have lost more than any other time. because in that period, i had acquired a lot of things, but in the end, they were the ones that leaves first.

recently my friend got married. joyful event. i was there to bear witness. old friend of mine, first among the list to get married, well "without missed shots". whilst it was merry, deep down, it hurts me to be there. everyone was talking to each other, except me. felt alienated although all of them were my high school friends. I always wonder, good people were always remembered as a friend. bad ones in reality, always have their own bunch of friends while good ones will occasionally join them. apparently none of the above fits my bill. and seriously, i am confused here.

I need a therapist, well...
I think...

I always remember Dr. Vijay (QuestNet Founder) used to say, "1 second of anger, 10 years of destructions". Its quite true actually but life just pushes people around and anger and disgust just flows like a river, non stop. I fight back all the time, because I do not wan to be drifted away by the current, accepting whatever that is coming my way.

but fighting back is always the one way that cost me the most. i am tired and alone. Guess its true what they say,

Life is a joke, drink beer is serious.

+1 on the comment if you are with me...

Simple riddle

2010-11-07T02:08:00.001+08:00

Najib asked the Queen, "Your Majesty, how do you run such an efficient
government? Are there any tips you can give to me?"

" Well," said the Queen, "the most important thing is to surround yourself
with intelligent people."

Najib frowned, and then asked, " But how do I know the people around me
are really intelligent?"
The Queen took a sip of tea. "Oh, that's easy; you just ask them to answer
an intelligent riddle." The Queen pushed a button on her intercom. "Please
send Tony Blair in here, would you?"
Tony Blair walked into the room and said, "Yes, my Queen?"
The Queen smiled and said, "Answer me this please, Tony, your mother and
father have a child. It is not your brother and it is not your sister. Who
is it?"
Without pausing for a moment, Tony Blair answered, "That would be me."
"Yes! Very good," said the Queen.

Najib went back home to ask Mahyudin the same
question. "answer this for me. Your mother and your father have a
child. It's not your brother and it's not your sister. Who is it?"
"I'm not sure," said Mahyudin. "Let me get back to you on that one..." He
went to his advisors and asked every one, but none could give him an
answer. Finally, he ended up in the men's room and recognized Lim Guan Eng's shoes in the next stall.
Mahyudin didn't want but asked anyway, "Lim, can you
answer this for me? Your mother and father have a child and it's not your
brother or your sister. Who is it?"
Lim yelled back, "That's easy, it's me!"
Mahyudin smiled, and said, "Thanks!"

Then, he went back to speak with Najib.
"Say, I did some research and I have the answer to that riddle. It's
Lim Guan Eng!"
Najib got up, stomped over to Mahyudin, and angrily yelled into his face,
"No! You idiot! It's Tony Blair!"

Credits to gohky @ [url=miricommunity.net]Miri Community[/url]

Long List of Updates!

2010-09-08T00:44:00.005+08:00

Hi followers...

been long time didnt update this... sorry for that if you are still following...

well... in this around 9 months of time... a lot had happened... will try to follow up as much as possible within this post...

JAN 2010

Bought my first D-SLR, the Nikon D3000. The pics below are courtesy of this SLR i have... enjoy!

Celebrated my birthday with Heather who came over to johor bharu... stayed at this J Hotel. very nice place. recommended!

Heather, shy off the lense... well i just got this SLR 2 weeks before she came over... had the most memorable birthday so far ever...

Thanks to her that made this year a very special one...

having lunch at McD. had the ring fries(i totally forgot what its called already... XD)

FEB 2010

CNY season...

well Heather wasnt with me during this period... but still this year, i had a long holiday and fortunately had a bunch of friends all coming back from overseas, made it such a fun ones...

Fireworks! cant miss this every CNY although its illegal here in Malaysia, but whats a CNY without one huh?

My MAS flight being prep before taking off from KLIA!

This is Rona, holding our boarding passes for flight KL-MYY

Allan posing with his modified van...

sweet ride!

The simple family Reunion dinner... steamboat with my dad's specialty sup tulang!

Another shot at fireworks... this one was captured from my best friend, chun hau's place... one of the biggest i have seen in my life...

another element that completes a CNY... Lion dance! there is another one, the Dragon dance, but unfortunately, i dun have my cam at those times...

Visiting my good friend, Kelvin's house... super huge, super comfy, super food! thanks for the hospitality!

Ah... Gear talks there... XD

Towards the end of CNY, my sis and I experienced a bad delay... 12 hours delay! and i have to say, screw MAS Malaysian's Hospitality... No system, impolite ground staff! No wonder everyone flies with Air Asia nowadays...

But anyway... as the flight got delayed for 12 hours, and within these hours, Heather got back to Miri from KK... i took this opportunity to drive down to Senadin from the airport to hook up with her...

Arriving KL after the fucking MAS delays... the next morning before driving down to JB, we had breakfast with Allan...

Went to his house and was greeted by this sweet beagle, Max. My bro's pet...

Well... the journey havent been nice as well... our car went on a over-heating problem half-way on the PLUS High-way... and shortly after this, there was some motherfuckers who tried to rob us off our ride... but Praise the Lord, all is good. Nothing lost, no one hurt...

MARCH 2010

Well its pass my 2010 1st semester's exam and i went back to Miri...

The beaches is the play that heather likes the most... and well that trip, i promise her that i would spend 5 days with her on the beach just dating...
Waiting for the sunset after we did the shot below...
a composite picture of us both... XD... had fun doing this, hopefully could do this again at a different venue...
Then, the sun set came and here are some shots...
Second shot...

Third shot... and then my holiday ended...

APRIL 2010

Start of the 2nd Semester 2010... Now at this time, I was kinda just started to get a hang of the life here in Skudai, Johor Bharu. A lot of stuff a different here and the funny/embarasing part is, I am forced to "re-learnt" my mandarin and upgrade my level on it... XD. and the people here likes to play as long as it involves water... :ϸ

Went to Melaka for a one day trip there...

Jonker Walk! the sculpture at the start of the walk...

Resting on the Red Building. The historical building in Melaka...

Our group expect me behind the lense having a group photo!

Bomb the motherfuckers! MWAhaHAhaHAhaHAha!

This is the playing with water thingy i mentioned earlier... this was the start of the orientation night gathering...

Greet the Station leader, first thing, get wet...

Lost in a round of game, getting more wet...

Third round, all wet, and not have to blow the ping pong ball out of the cup filled with water...

While doing the juggling... more water please!

And ends with everyone looking really wet... just before they go home... XD!

Love Life!

MAY 2010

Was covering my school's graduation dinner. A fun filled event and a big congrats to the organizers for the success of the event... below are some shots of the event... enjoy!

Enjoying his dance performance.

The food. Nice, nice and very nice! although there were a problem of poor estimation, but still return home with a full stomach.

Some key chain for memory at the registration counter!

Unfortunately these are the only shots that i am gonna share in this post...

Well... at this point, life was back to normal... WHY? you might be asking. Well, my faithful speed lite went haywired late in the month of May... hence at that point, going out taking pictures was really a disappointment, thought me a very good lesson though that brought me to the next event that is going to unfold shortly, the lesson is: Good lighting is the other half beside a good camera in a photographer's journey...

Fast Forward to August 2010!

Now the big upgrade! My very own home based portrait studio i open for business... Still a lot of arrangements and also setting up to do as I am writing this post, but all in all, its open for all sorts of portraits: personal portraits, fashion portraits, product shots, convocation portraits etc etc...

here are some soft copy of my works from the studio!

Products!

Portraiture

Portraiture again!

well, for more info on services that i provide, feel free to call me at

0168529993

brian-r-tan

For now, ciao!

Have a nice Day!

Semester ended

2009-12-08T13:31:00.001+08:00

Semester 1 of my school has come to an end. Hopefully i will get a good result from the final exam. Anyway, at the mean time, i will just sit back and enjoy my beers! Updates later on much cooler stuff. Stay tuned.

Outting

2009-08-22T18:20:00.001+08:00

Went out jalan jalan. Nothing to do then took this picture. Having dinner at kenny rogers now. Hihi. Like the picture and i thought wanted to update the long forgotten blog. Ciao.

new place, new begining...

2009-08-17T01:47:00.012+08:00

reach skudai with my dad... and my 30KG of stuff from miri that is seem to be sufficient for my head start in the new place, Skudai, Johor... situated at the south of the Malaysian Peninsular... and only a 30mins drive to Johor Bharu... the first impression of life here is everyone seems to be minding their own business... nobody cares...

proved it huh? the kids are playing with the fountain just outside the jusco mall here... kinda funny that this dun happen even in my small hometown in Miri!

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this is the view of my school... for mirians, does it look like Chung Hua secondary school? tha place is call Southern College and i will be doing my Electrical & Electronic Engineering here...

the view of my room wheni just moved in with my 30KG of stuff... and havent arrange them! messy! hahaha...

Yea! I know... Its Small!

After setting everything down at the dorm from the car... we head out to the famous Bah Ku Teh place in skudai...

This is not all the dish... but heck i am too hungry to take picture... after taking this pic... i just eat eat eat and the next thing i know... its all gone! XD

and after 2 days of arranging and unpacking...

Thats all for this time i guess... more to come once the class starts already...

ciao...

Good life about to end....

2009-08-03T13:52:00.004+08:00

as from the previous post... i was back in miri and was having none other than living good and having fun the whole way through... moments that i have been sad, happy, dull, colourful etc etc... but hey, THAT'S LIFE! full of ups and downs...

lets start off with the clubbing! XD

This was taken during "A Night In Rome" by Heinneken in
AL-FRESCO.

Had fun that night although we were only there for a while due to club overload... but nevertheless... it was fun listening to DJ LapSap mixing the house beat... and the dancing and "worshiping" the DJ as the tune go on...

well... thats not all been i think on average clubbing every saturday night... thats after i go to church for my youth meeting... HAHA... *sorry*

despite all the drinking and smoking and screaming... i guess i am still healthy... check out my BP... still is normal... but i havent gone back to take my medical report from the hospital though... haha... not scared but rather dun find the effort to go although i am in town almost everyday during my holiday...

food at home are really better than food in school... guess i have to thank my mum for my good health... because she serves good food... HAHAHA... everyday! and another thing is... i really have to say something in contradict to normal people's mindset of clubbing is unhealthy...

cuz

to me... when i club yes i drink, smoke and dance... but while doing that i sweat because of dancing and during those moments... i am stress free... and well... i never drank too much that i got drunk... most of the time... i come out from the club sober! and of course dun do DRUGS!

see... still as healthy as a horse... hahaha... this is taken minutes before i came back from johor... went to WM for a week...

and that one week have been the most special week of my holiday... this is my girl friend... who i met during one of the saturday night out... dunno about the readers but i think she is gorgeous in this picture...

well... what else clubbing are bad for... hehe... from this post... i think clubbing did basically a lot of good things to my life than harm...

i get to meet people, get to relax, get to workout... and most importantly...

i met my TINY...

and i am happy to be with her...

thats all...

ciao~

Back to Miri... Good life starts again...

2009-04-30T19:04:00.002+08:00

I drove this just now. Haha. Anyway, coming back for holiday, then i got this job offer from my previous workplace. Asking me to go back and work for them as they are short of hand. So i guess i will be going back to work starting this saturday as an profesional car audio installer again. Stay tune for more updates from the workplace. Ciao

Searching for a Soulmate

2009-02-12T14:23:00.003+08:00

I am looking for someone,

Someone I would like to spend my free time with.
Someone I like to call although I have no particular topic to discuss.
Someone I like to send an mms to whenever I got a haircut.
Someone who I would like to share my pass with.
Someone who I would give a gift just because it’s Monday.
Someone I like to treat when I got my salary every month.
Someone I would like to share my happiness, sorrow, and sweet, bitter of my life.
Someone who accepts me for what I am, a sinner with a shameful pass.
Someone who I think of before I got out of bed and goes to bed.
Someone who share my passions over pet dogs.
Someone who would hold my hands when I needed her.
Someone who stays although I asked her to leave.
Someone who understands my temper and calms me down even though she is scared.
Someone who would stay on my bed side when I am sick.
Someone whose smile would take my breath away.
Someone whose touch would clear my mind.
Someone whose hug would make me feel secure.
Someone whose kiss would me feel happy.
Someone whose silence would make me feel guilty.
Someone whose tears would make my chest hurts.
Someone whose cry would make me feel useless.
Someone whose rest is more important than mine.
Someone whose health is more crucial than mine.
Someone whose need is more essential than mine.
Someone whose wish is my responsibility.
Someone whose life is more valuable than mine.
Someone who I like to share my life with.
Someone who I like to share my hobby with.
Someone who I like to built a family with.
Someone who I like to grow old with.
Someone I like to share our life memories on the rocking chairs as grey haired couples.
Someone who I like to be with till my last breath.
Someone who I would claim as the nicest person on Earth when God asked.
Someone I believe would make it to heaven for her kindness.
Someone I would wait for in heaven.

I wished she knows...

My necklace....

2009-02-04T15:11:00.002+08:00

Necklaces worn around the neck are often seen but what does it means? To some it is a fashion statement. Hip hop cultures likes it big and heavy with a shining touch they often refer as “Bling Bling”. Rich wears pearls as a symbol of greatness and prosperity. Chinese wears gold as a sign of good wealth. Others wear string with a locket of their God as a sign of believe and also some wear them as a remembrance to someone close to their heart. I am one of those.

Necklace alone symbolize the person, worn without a locket means that the person is single and available. When I have a special someone I will attach a locket together with my necklace which symbolizes that special person.

Why all these? My necklace is always around my neck.

· When I sleep, wash, play, and move. With the locket around I include my special ones when I do everything. Normally I hide my necklace inside my shirt to protect it from prying eyes, protecting it from danger like I would protect my special ones from any harm.

· When I reach home, I take off everything on me. Change my cloth, my earrings, my wallet, my rings etc. everything except my necklace because I cannot take it off. It’s a part of me, my special one and me.

· When I am free, a habit of me is I will hold and adore my locket. Kiss it, pamper it and clean it. Just like I would do to my special one every single day.

· Lastly, the locket is the thing I wore nearest to my heart. Means my special one is always near to my heart. Wherever and whenever I am she is always there and I do hope she does the same thing.

That’s all about necklace to me. Not a fashion statement, not a show off item but something more than just a chain worn around the neck. It’s an important part of me which completes me.

Gong Xi Fa Chai

2009-01-26T09:29:00.002+08:00

The Grand 21st Birthday....

2009-01-22T16:12:00.009+08:00

time flies...

21 years on this planet earth and i had the best time of my life together with my family, friends, pet and presents!!!

A car trunk loaded with presents... hahaha... thats where the journey of my birthday begins.... hahahaahah...

HERE GOES>>>

1st my car had a little pimping... tinted with the expensive Huper Optiks Select... the highest range you could find in from this brand... I would give them a better rating than V-cool... and well of course they come with a price heavier than V-cool...

This is a shot of the tint... with its logo on it... hehe...

This is present from my sister, Thanks a lot SIS!!!! LOVE YA XOXO

Then my eldest brother bought this back from New Zealand.

A MOMO Personal Original with MOMO BOSS Kit... haha... with a heafty handsome price tag on it too.... haha...

A shot of the Logo on the middle... installed them myself hence the minor scratches... haha... sorry...

anyway... Thanks Again to my brother ALLAN

LOVE YOU TOO XOXO

thats not all from NZ... for my audio fetish... my family al know that i have this huge interest of audio sound...
and my brother Allan also brought me a brand new Boston Rally Series RS12 12" subwoofer... its one of my dream sub woofer of all times... and discontinued range actually... could find it in the market anymore... but he took the effort to look for it from the other enthusiats collections and bought it back... Best part is IT'S BRAND NEW IN BOX...

My Elder brother Philip also gave me something... New Racing series Absorbers sets fro GAB... for all 4 cornerrs... plus the lowered springs...

These are the lowered springs.... haha...

they have a progressive spring rate... if you know what it means... hehe...

Love the handling of the ride now... Thanks bro.... LOVE YOU XOXO

Lastly from my parents... My very own RM17,000 Rolex Oyster Perpetual... The most expensive present that i have ever received... and its super heavy... still not used to wear it as its too heavy and too scared to wear it to town... haha...

anyway... TO MY PARENTS YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST.. LOVE YA Both ALWAYS... XOXO

Dinner on Pizza... hehe.. thanks to my mum who thought of this... and went down to bintang megamall to buy two of my favourite flavoured pizza from Pizza Hut... Her excuse was, "I am lazy to cook tonight." but deep down i know its more than the laziness... haha... thanks mum... love ya... XOXO

As the clock struck 11... Me and my sis went on to one of the famous pub and disco in miri, Balcony... we club, we dance, we drink till 2 a.m.

in the picture are my best friends chun hao, my sis rona, and also my best friends frankie...

Me, sis and frankie... cam whore on the dance floor...

also in the club is kelvin, ah kiong, yong ping, khim hin, and agnus...

thanks for the great time guys and ladies... you guys were great...

and also thanks for the beer... and also frankie for the tequila shots...

Well, a birthday without cakes... haha... but well who cares when you are having so much fun... plus cakes are too sweet for me... dun get me wrong... i love to bake... but i dun like to eat... haha...

Thanks for all the time and effort guys...

and also not forgeting olivia for the post on her blogspot... haha...

thats all on my grand 21st birthday...

Land slide in miri

2009-01-16T19:08:00.007+08:00

just came back from Labuan Island for my Chinese New Year Celebration... some decorations are up in town...

But later i found out there was a land slide in the centre of town that hit one of the Shell Petrol station...

some pics...

where the land slide started i guess

half the fuel station gone...

another view of the wreak...

some links...
The land slide

The victims found at around 2p.m.

MY CONDOLENCE

to

the family of the victims...

New Year's Eve... Last post for 2008

2008-12-31T19:14:00.009+08:00

hmm... New Year's Eve... everybody is celebrating... everybody is bidding good bye with the year 2008... and for some they look back at their one year's achievements... like me...

let me start with:

1. Audio Sound Achievement

Bought 4 pieces of rare yet highly sought after PPI Power Class Series amplifier for my ride... these amps cost me a bank load of money... had to eat cucumber for quite a while... to restore back from that purchase...Alpine 7998R car cd-mp3 player + Alpine PXA-H701 multi media for me to control every bits of the sound in my ride... this to me is a milestone upgrading cuz i always wanted a pure deck like 7998R and i always wanted to try tuning through a processor like 701... they are both well match made in heaven...

2. Travels

Went to Kuala Lumpur... for 2 weeks... milestone to me because this is the first time i went there and meet friends... ex-schoolmates, ex-girlfriends, ex-colleugue, and also current college mates... had nice stay at sunway area with my girlfriend(now ex)... had a great 2 weeks...

3. SocialLabuan... the capital of cheap beer and night clubs in Malaysia... went clubbing... got drunk... hug girls... flirt girls... and.......................................................... didnt get laid.... hehe... i still fear God.... hahahaha...

4. Changed my image...

well this is the new look me... getting fatter... longer spikies... and well a lot of jewellries... not talking about the cheap silver... we are talking about stainless steels and also platinums....

5. Pets
My new pets... the left side dachshund dog named Starry, and the right side Sparky... which is a basset hound dog... Starry is a female and well i describe her as a hyperactive dog... while Sparky is a male... well mannered and very quiet... wonder what would come out when they both make out... hush puppies? hehe...

6. New speakers for my dorm
Cheap but it does the job... well... long time needed these and well SQ is nice except for the sub bass is a lot more lacking... but hell it satisfies the room and have the neighbours coming over because its too loud....

7. New Phone
P1i... my new phone after i lost my n70 in a house theft... along with my laptops... well... havent replaced my laptops but i am working on it... this phone works wonders and well had a few head turned and nobody else knows how to use them... making them save from intruders... most of the time...

thats all i could think of... now...

anyway for the year 2008 i learnt a lot of new things... earn a lot of money... lost a lot of money and well things had changed a lot... hell lots... ups and downs in relationships, finacials, and also family...

but

When i look back to what i was before, i cling on it then i am not moving forward, looking forward to whats before me and well lets lope for the best of luck...

Lets bid a GOOD BYE to 2008...

AND

2009 Well...

BRING IT ON!

I wanted to be special but.....

2008-12-30T00:26:00.004+08:00

She only wants to be friends.....

Well then maybe I should had gave her the chocolates in the picture above instead of finishing them up because of some sweet temptations... I love kinders... especially bueno... I was also a bit reluctant to give her a box full because of the word friends written on it instead of "SPECIAL" or sorts because it just doesn't feel right to me...

Oh well, things havent been going on good lately especially for this year where i have lost eventually everything important to me. Lost my laptop where my whole life's memories captured in pictures and videos in it... the laptop cost little to me... but its the memories that cost me my life and soul... along with my good handphone memories in that thing too in similar forms and business contacts... lost half of my friends contacts because i lost a phone and i havent been recovering from that. next I lost my long termed relationship when it was going well and happily waiting for the right time... and i am on alcohols and cigs most of the time... and most importantly i lost my confidence talking to everyone... cause i feel like i have nothing better to offer other than just both my hands... no cash, no credit cards, no commitments...

living without that special someone to share with is my biggest problem now... there are friends around... good ones in fact... but growing up being a outcast for being born into a mixed blood family doesnt teach me how to share but rather the other way round and also it lowers down the social rates and well lowers down the confidence level... which cause me problems now meeting new people and also telling that someone what i really wants...

the other problem has been there forever... heart races frantically whenever alone with her... mind just had that extra kicks but its not thinking... honestly... she had been the one i had constantly tried to let go and ignored but i couldnt help drawing towards her... because i wan her by my side... so that i could be by her side... to love her, pamper her, protect her, and support her... eventhough i know i have limited reserves to actually do everything but i would like to be there for her everytime she needs it...

but i failed miserably all these years... i blame timing, i blame situations, and i blame myself for not appreciatting her when i had the chance...

Should i moved on and leave this chapter or i should hold on because this is the new chapter... i'm not sure myself... Moving on means finding a chick that is pretty enough, good enough and have a relationship while my heart still have feeling for her... so unfair towrds the new girl who doesnt know me...

but holding on might waste my own previous time... i should be out there enjoying...

puzzles... dun even know which ones i am in...

but well... honestly i hate to continue denying those feelings to everyone including my family...

New activity in my room

2008-11-10T21:39:00.001+08:00

Hey all, just finished my most difficult month in labuan. Battling with short of cash, rivising rigourously for my semester exam, fighting over some minor relationship issue, badly answered examination questions, and lastly got my breaking up in a long termed relationship. Oh well, so many had changed in this one month, I am singled, I have no money and I think I did the most stupid thing by arriving at the exam centre drunk because of the quarrelling and well of course i didnt do well in it too. Anyways, in the mmiddle of those bad days, do have something to cheer me up. Contacted an old buddy, kept me occupied and cleaned my heart wounds by lending ears. Although the high telecom bills i have now, its all worth it. Anyway, back to topic, new addition in my room is the dart board there beside my table. Messy table aint it. Well, i didnt buy the dart board. Honestly it was given to me by my bunch of good friend who knew i am still healing from the recent lost. Havent bought my dart though. But its cool.

Final in one week

2008-10-21T20:34:00.001+08:00

The semester 1 final of one year program in malaysian matriculation is going to be held in 1 week. Everyone is studying, revising, reading and whatever you like to call them. As for me, well i am busy with my revisions accompanied by my dunhill lights. Never thought i will pick up cig again after quiting for a few years. But they sure keep me awake at times like these. Anyway. Wish me luck and to all others in lmc. Good luck and hopefully we all get 4 flat.

Weekend my the pool table

2008-09-13T14:32:00.001+08:00

This is what i was doing today for the whole afternoon. Well, this is the normal pass time for the students at my college during weekends. Except for liquers and beers, we hang out here for free wifi and also pool. Whether you are pro or just a noob. Everyone share the wow and laugh together besides having chilled beverages. Nothing to update. Just taking the oppturnity to update my blog. To all my muslims friends, selamat berpuasa!

The adventure trip down South

2008-08-20T15:16:00.003+08:00

Was at Muar, Johor to meet up with my sister last weekend. One of the holiday plans I have. Well, found out that Muar is just like my own hometown in Miri, Sarawak. Even the food tasted almost the same. The only different is the driving practice that the people used there. Unethical drivers were everywhere. In such a small town and i don't really understand why are people rushing up and down on the road... Didn't took much picture though when I was there. Just realized when i am writing this entry.

But the thing I enjoyed the most there is the local delicacies. Hit down to Muar and walk down the streets for Otak-Otak which is some grilled seafood wrapped in leaf, get some local fried noodles and they are sure different and delicious than the ones i had tasted elsewhere in Malaysia. other than that, if you liked seafood, try the fried oyster and enjoy that aroma. and as for breakfast, of course the otak-otak buns.

anyway. thats all from Muar.

The holiday continues

2008-08-20T12:38:00.007+08:00

The holiday continues with a meal at some pirate designed restaurant in Sunway Piramid. Have to say the food was nice so as the designs. Having my stomach filled, Joan and I went on for a picture frenzy, here is some shots of the wall art...

Anyway, on our way back to our apartment, we were shocked by the fire alarm from Taylor's College which is just beside our apartment. Had some chopper shots of the frantic in Taylor's

turns out the fire was from the basement parkings. no more informations available... or maybe I am not bothered. It's not my college anyway...

A holiday getaway at the nation capital - Kuala Lumpur.

2008-08-11T10:53:00.003+08:00

This is the first day of shopping. In Mid Valley and going to The Gardens. With a plactic bag from Licci which isn't there in Mid Vallay or The Gardens. Inside the bag is some dancing pad that people used to play some dancing game. Beside me is my long termed girl friend, Joan. Well, we didn't actually went full force on the shopping side. We were there to have a little reunion with our school mates. Had a great time catching up and having lunch. Seems like everyone is grown up and well mature in many ways. Gonna miss you all when i have gone back to my small little island later. Anyway, hope to see you all during Christmas.

This is a random shot of the huge chess set at the Mid Valley. Guess they were borrowed from Goliath's home.

Dining sets too?

a view of my lovely school...

2008-01-15T07:54:00.000+08:00

now probably my friends had been listening to my complaints about my college... and well this is a documentaries about its setting... just a part of it... not all... i will try to get a chopper view of the other side... jus wait and see... for now...

PART 1

the majestic field where we called it "Astaka".... whatever that means... (",)... anyway this was taken at mid day so there is no people around the track jogging and working out... if this is taken in the evening, then you can see ladies jogging around with their tits bouncing... haha... and of course boys showing off their latest jogging sneaks...

the view of the "sick" dorm... not exactly my dorm area but this is the poor lecturer's who had to suffer the problematic "insufficient water problem"... while on top of the stupid problem... the school is jus 1 mile away from the water source of the ISLAND... but oh well... its good to had those grown-ups suffer along so they know about our problems but... nothing-done....

actually was trying to take the mosque view... but then this is the best i could do from the tallest building in the school... well as you can see in the school the infrastructure of the school is top class... if only i could get hold of a car here... or better still drive my own car here to school.... haha... but that is pathetically impossible to do here, as it's against the school rules...

the car-park right till the main entrance... and also the Astaka I mentioned earlier... now this is a part of the walk I had to take before I endure the blazing sun, waiting for "mini-bus" to come and bring me downtown... anyway... there are guard at the entrance but expect only craps from them about the latest updates of the school "outting" rules...

this is the little pond just beside the tallest building... this is the part where students usually wait for the time for the lecturer to finally come back from their business... or celebrate a special occasion or just hang out... anyway i have never been there... haha... i prefer some place with food...

ok thts all for now...

ciao...

holiday again

2008-01-07T21:37:00.000+08:00

well... its holiday again... and happy birthday to my sis, rona... hahaha...

but then ok, the real deal, thiss holiday doesnt seem to be fun at all... i am still in labuan spending them and had a little stroll around town today... and bought an earring here...well, nothing else tht is cool and wearable to buy here other than this... was thinking of buying liquer again but somehow to think that i have less than 90 days to my final exams stop me from doing so...

anyway... here is how i am going to spend my holiday this time... online and in the library where there is no privacy and tons of website being blocked, even the search results are blocked...

oh well, thats life in labuan...
Boringly stranded...

Life goes on...

2007-12-28T10:29:00.000+08:00

Well, for some reason this blog is dead now... havent really found a material to really blog about... haha... still searching for it.

anyway... this post is for the seasonal greetings...

merry X'mas & Happy New Year!!!

my new year resolutions: tune my car audio setup to perfections;have my own fibre glass designing in my car;join the SQ competition if there is any...

what are your???

first day of my semester 1 finals

2007-10-29T08:27:00.000+08:00

day 1:
english is the one going on today. Starts at 1215 and ends at 1315(1 hour). well still dunno what to expect from the paper as in the tutorials we never actually discussed about what the exam is going to be like. heard from fellow ex-two years program people that it was hard and last year, there were only a handful pass that paper. hmm... hearing that, i've butterflies in my stomach...

well... i guess jus have to face it. haha... time to show of those flowerish and peotry filled english to the examiners like i did to get a GCE-A1... haha...

wish me luck...

rushin' againts time

2007-10-24T21:48:00.000+08:00

well the time of the year for every student is around the corner again... exams, created to evaluate how far a student has learnt in this one semester and how deep students had master the subjects... as for me, i just came back from a holiday in KL, sill finding sometime to adjust back to the tight schedules of revision and mastering every major subjects that i am taking... guess i don't have much time left for blogging and surfing the forums as well...

well other than i do have another think to worry about... my holidays are coming just after the exams as always but i still haven't buy my ferry ticket to get my arse down to Kota Kinabalu(KK) as my flight is due from KK - Miri... I am afraid that the tickets are all sold out...

hate doing things in the last minutes but i think its a norm in fellow malaysians... we tend to do things in the last minutes but rather most of the time we work better under the "last minutes" pressure...

anyway... to all tht is facing the exams...

ALL DA' BEST...

back to lala island

2007-10-22T19:30:00.000+08:00

back to labuan today... Air Asia was delayed again for 20mins today although we all got into the flight earlier than expected... everything went well this morning... like always, a gruelling trip to the airport from KL, checked-in and help a new friend whom i only met in LCCT to check in his bag which it was over-weight for him, nice chap btw... then a boring nearly 2 hours wait at the airport, luckily there is KLIA WiFi to keep me occupied... and a sad sad good bye to the loved ones that is left behind, Joan... a little old boring last words and i went into the boarding... well i have to admit it was hard to me too... that's why i told you not to cry...

anyway, with those behind... i went into the boarding with my new friends... talked a little and get to know each other a little... but we didnt sit together inside the aircraft... didnt know why but i jus choose not to sit together... watch three other aircraft took off and three other land inside my aircraft and it was a beautiful sight... very rare to hav such chance...

well... as time goes by... i started to get a little tired... i took a cab back to my college... arrived and as i was walking towards my dorm... i realise: "i lost my phone!!!" and panically i rush back to the school gate with my another phone calling my lost phone... well couldnt find it... keep on calling my phone was the only way i've got... after a number of attempt... finally the cab driver, didnt manage to get his name btw... answered and with a friendly tone he arranged with me to give back my phone... about 2 hours later... my phone rang and he was at my school gate waiting for me to pick up my phone as he jus sent a customer nearby... and of course... now i have my phone back... lucky case ain't it?

well, the situation tells me something... first knowing the phone was gone... i lost hope of finding it back... in my mind was "its an expensive thing, who would give it up for free?"... i never thought my case would be so easy to solve... so i think next time i have to think positively and also dun give up trying... jus about anyway possible legally to get what i wan...

yea... long day today... tired... so i would pen off here...

everything has to be new...

2007-10-21T20:58:00.000+08:00

OK... some comments said tht i should pump up my font size... comment nodded with thanks...

anyway... as you all know... i jus visited the entertainment hub of Malaysia... and stayed in bukit bintang area... a place where the malaysian's youngsters' fashion evolved... well... got frost bitten by the enviroment around me... and well went on to a shopping spree for cloths... Now that's a first one for me... as i was never a fashion cautious guy... rather a pair of denim and one t-shirts would jus be enough for me to go jus about anywhere... more than tht... one long-sleeved shirt would be jus fine...

ok... i pierced my ear... and bought RM70 worth of assorted lastest design earrings... not enough? a sut around RM120 for tht... and a shirt RM70... and a pair of denim, RM100... all these in jus one night... and well... the list goes further on the second night and i would wan to talk about it now... feeling regretful of the shopping spree... but oh well on the other hand, this is the first time i went for a shopping spree for my attire!!! and it feels great... dunno why... haha... looking forward for a trip like this again in fact...

anyway... ever heard your parents nagging at you about study now and next time the good life will come and you will enjoy life after your studies? well not true!!! after our study years, we will step into the marketplace working day in day out... for a living, after a few years.. you get married or have a family and you got your children plus your work to worry about... after your children are grown up, you got their college to fund and well there.. another worry comes... and after another few years,.. you got old and retire... ok... now you have a good length of time to hav fun and do things you always dreamt of... but well guess what.. you are too old for those activities you dreamt of now...

period... i think when you start to look at life tht way... its going to be miserable... productivity starts to go down... try to look at it from a different view... working life isn't so bad... you have annual holidays... good jobs pay you enough till the extend they will make a family vacation affordable for you... tht is jus one of the benefits you get... a lot more up in the chess... jus need to study now and work for the best...

well then to all tht are having exams soon... or struggling in their studies... keep up the good work... and good things will come... haha... just don't forget about me and friends...

cheers to all...

Arrived in KL in one piece

2007-10-19T07:47:00.001+08:00

oh yea!!! Kuala Lumpur, the one stop hub for Malaysians for the lastest updates and trend... I arrive last night at the LCCT and went down to Subang area... had a little walk in Subang Parade only to find out: "Damn, new never seen before gadgets are everywhere..." I wonder what they are...

recently received a comment from a good friend of mine on the fourth post... well... thanks... but i am not going to talk about relationship now... jus had enough said on those... furthermore i think i am not in a position to talk about it so much... but to you all out there... jus be yourself in every situation... shits come and go, so does lucky...

oh well, what am i going to say in this post? oh well... one of my friend in KL was also having hard days living here... but one thing i admire this young sweet lady is she is TOUGH no matter in what no matter what obstacles are presented in front of her... she jus takes them up and fight...

she made me look back to my own life, how i handled obstacles in my life earlier and now... and my point of view about life when obstacles came by... well to be honest, me dealing with obstacles is often jus for the sake of geting rid of it... the best is not to have anything to do with it... i guess many of us do think of it tht way too... but she proved me wrong... she shown to me that the best way of dealing with hardship in life is to look deep into it and find the long-termed solution... guess i hav to start learning about those skills and put them to use...

oh well... hope it sends a msg to all tht read this post...

to tht sweet lady in KL... keep it up... once the storm is over... everything will be find...

cheers to all...

missing in actions

2007-10-18T01:44:00.000+08:00

well... didnt know while i was away from miri, tht much changed... more than what i ever thought of... i thought it was only the girls tht recently had problem with "partnership"... boys too... two of my best friend broke off from what seems to be their destiny... and i was "bitching around" to my good friend over those things... i guess well life is not so straight forward in many ways... well issue needs to be resolved... in a corect manners. think bout a big.. wait i mean huge problem in your relationship and you are not happy with it... talking it out to your partner is a right thing to do... when the opposite side dont take it... you shout about it... come on guys... be brave shout it out... quarrel over it on purpose...

ok... think i am crazee now? well i am... look at my nick... but the reason why i say this is because many time jus talking about a big problem tend to make the opposite site think tht it only bothers you... and you are ok with it... but jus dun over do it... well they responded quite naturally with a nod but nothing change... so i suggest shouting it out... sort of waking the opposite up and make sure it really hits him... and hits hard...

but then these could only leads to two possible endings... moving on to a better more closer relationship or breaking a relationship into piece that you would never be able to reattach them back... but hey both are good news... first one: you know the opposite is serious about the relationship and she knows it too... and i could only predict a more fruitful relationship after this... then the second one: well she is not even serious... i mean who couldnt stand a shouting before? i think her parents do shout at her to wake her up right? so why cant you wake her up... and since she is not serious then why move on... things are going to end sooner or later...

but the later it ends the painful it is...

chocolates for the ladies

2007-10-17T17:24:00.000+08:00

well these are for the ladies in KL who requested them... hehe... seems temping ain't it? well nothing special for us living here in Labuan... we ate these like sweets... they are cheap due to the no tax policy here... but then the tax free policy here has made the people and the students resorts to smoking and drinking as a tension release method... and well... i do admit having one Jack Daniel's up in my locker, occasionally drink it, not heavy drinker but sort of just social drinker kind of stuff... but hey, there are some who drank till they were drunk here... and i think this is way too much... there have reported some suicide attempt here... police report were lodge and those students involved were hospitalized and all tht... we were told they ate panadols in their attempt... but the real story was they were drunk at those time and were unconcious of their act of stupidity...

anyway... my point is, the goverment should rethink about putting liqour and ciggarettes into the no tax category... i mean it does more harm than good to the people... its sad to see how a good student fallen into the trap and resorts to them as their way out... while its jus for tht moment... after they regained conciousness, the problem is still there... putting the automotives, the chocolates and also imported merchandised into that region to boost the national economy is a good move but in the midst making the profits, they should thinking about the locals too...

another day in waste land and i am gone

2007-10-17T10:09:00.001+08:00

OK... the last day i will be stranded on this boring island... tomolo i will be taking a flight to Kuala Lumpur!!! meeting my lovely lovely long-termed girl friend and also some of the automotive guys in central peninsular... well.. the journey towards MTX Team would start there i guess... going to place my orders in if there is any good resonable offers from the "friends of In Car Entertainment(I.C.E.)". wan to sincerely say sorry to my family that i didnt even told them about this trip... well nobody at home knows about it...

Anyway, recently i found that many of the girls around me either quarrreled or worst-broke up with their partners... and the normal things would be written, ie. "I am really scared to lose you, you are really important to me. I can't live without you.." or "My life is worthless without you" etc etc... well i know girls, you all are sadden about those recent arguements and stuff... but well from a guy's POV your comments are a bit too much... Out of all of those girls i heard these from before you girls, they actually survived, alive and enjoying a new life moving on in a new relationship with another new partner and things are looking good for them... so my advise... why cling on one man that had treated you so badly and hurted you? why not move on with life and find your true destiny?

but there is one comment i liked: "what has gone, has gone" well you know who you are... keep up the positive thinking while you are sad... i am sure you will be fine after you learnt how to really put things down... and pick up yourself again...

one last word for the ladies and everyone else: you can't look back at what you were before, you look forward for what is before you...

Stranded in Labuan

2007-10-17T01:15:00.000+08:00

well, i think a lot of my friends heard me whining about this a long time ago... and well guess its boring topic to them already... but then now we are having our Hari Raya Aidilfitri holidays and i am left alone in my four person dorm. Tht sucks... usually we had dinner together during the ramadhan month where the muslims were fasting but now, i had to eat alone with nobody to talk to or share the food like we always did. and well the whining frenzy from me started again in my MSN...

not having a wireless internet connection in the dorm also proved to be a real problem now... we had a little individual web page assignment to upload and well many of us had a little problem uploading due to the unavailablity of internet connections. uploading in CC in town is also a problem they dun hav those programs needed... well to my course mate... good luck finding your source... feels bad for them as i hav my own connection in my room using my N-70 connected to the digi WAP line as my source of internet.. but its way too expensive to share it... sorry guys... hope you all understand... i dun print money...

well, have been missing in action recent month from the in car entertainment scene in my hometown, miri... dunno how my own car is doing... hopefully everything is still fine... planning to form a MTX team with my good ICE mate Jackie... lets jus hope those plans goes well... i am not sure myself how far MTX could go in a SQ setup... btw Jackie, my Addzest arrived yesterday can't wait to hook it up....

anyway... thats all for the first post... will be updating as frequently as possible...