New Year's Eve... Last post for 2008

hmm... New Year's Eve... everybody is celebrating... everybody is bidding good bye with the year 2008... and for some they look back at their one year's achievements... like me...

let me start with:

1. Audio Sound Achievement

Bought 4 pieces of rare yet highly sought after PPI Power Class Series amplifier for my ride... these amps cost me a bank load of money... had to eat cucumber for quite a while... to restore back from that purchase...Alpine 7998R car cd-mp3 player + Alpine PXA-H701 multi media for me to control every bits of the sound in my ride... this to me is a milestone upgrading cuz i always wanted a pure deck like 7998R and i always wanted to try tuning through a processor like 701... they are both well match made in heaven...

2. Travels

Went to Kuala Lumpur... for 2 weeks... milestone to me because this is the first time i went there and meet friends... ex-schoolmates, ex-girlfriends, ex-colleugue, and also current college mates... had nice stay at sunway area with my girlfriend(now ex)... had a great 2 weeks...


3. SocialLabuan... the capital of cheap beer and night clubs in Malaysia... went clubbing... got drunk... hug girls... flirt girls... and.......................................................... didnt get laid.... hehe... i still fear God.... hahahaha...

4. Changed my image...

well this is the new look me... getting fatter... longer spikies... and well a lot of jewellries... not talking about the cheap silver... we are talking about stainless steels and also platinums....

5. Pets
My new pets... the left side dachshund dog named Starry, and the right side Sparky... which is a basset hound dog... Starry is a female and well i describe her as a hyperactive dog... while Sparky is a male... well mannered and very quiet... wonder what would come out when they both make out... hush puppies? hehe...

6. New speakers for my dorm
Cheap but it does the job... well... long time needed these and well SQ is nice except for the sub bass is a lot more lacking... but hell it satisfies the room and have the neighbours coming over because its too loud....

7. New Phone
P1i... my new phone after i lost my n70 in a house theft... along with my laptops... well... havent replaced my laptops but i am working on it... this phone works wonders and well had a few head turned and nobody else knows how to use them... making them save from intruders... most of the time...

thats all i could think of... now...

anyway for the year 2008 i learnt a lot of new things... earn a lot of money... lost a lot of money and well things had changed a lot... hell lots... ups and downs in relationships, finacials, and also family...

but

When i look back to what i was before, i cling on it then i am not moving forward, looking forward to whats before me and well lets lope for the best of luck...

Lets bid a GOOD BYE to 2008...

AND

2009 Well...

BRING IT ON!

I wanted to be special but.....

She only wants to be friends.....

Well then maybe I should had gave her the chocolates in the picture above instead of finishing them up because of some sweet temptations... I love kinders... especially bueno... I was also a bit reluctant to give her a box full because of the word friends written on it instead of "SPECIAL" or sorts because it just doesn't feel right to me...

Oh well, things havent been going on good lately especially for this year where i have lost eventually everything important to me. Lost my laptop where my whole life's memories captured in pictures and videos in it... the laptop cost little to me... but its the memories that cost me my life and soul... along with my good handphone memories in that thing too in similar forms and business contacts... lost half of my friends contacts because i lost a phone and i havent been recovering from that. next I lost my long termed relationship when it was going well and happily waiting for the right time... and i am on alcohols and cigs most of the time... and most importantly i lost my confidence talking to everyone... cause i feel like i have nothing better to offer other than just both my hands... no cash, no credit cards, no commitments...

living without that special someone to share with is my biggest problem now... there are friends around... good ones in fact... but growing up being a outcast for being born into a mixed blood family doesnt teach me how to share but rather the other way round and also it lowers down the social rates and well lowers down the confidence level... which cause me problems now meeting new people and also telling that someone what i really wants...

the other problem has been there forever... heart races frantically whenever alone with her... mind just had that extra kicks but its not thinking... honestly... she had been the one i had constantly tried to let go and ignored but i couldnt help drawing towards her... because i wan her by my side... so that i could be by her side... to love her, pamper her, protect her, and support her... eventhough i know i have limited reserves to actually do everything but i would like to be there for her everytime she needs it...

but i failed miserably all these years... i blame timing, i blame situations, and i blame myself for not appreciatting her when i had the chance...

Should i moved on and leave this chapter or i should hold on because this is the new chapter... i'm not sure myself... Moving on means finding a chick that is pretty enough, good enough and have a relationship while my heart still have feeling for her... so unfair towrds the new girl who doesnt know me...

but holding on might waste my own previous time... i should be out there enjoying...

puzzles... dun even know which ones i am in...

but well... honestly i hate to continue denying those feelings to everyone including my family...